I may not be perfect, but i'm me

I don’t think you realize how much you hurt me sometimes. I really care about you and just want to help you. I know you’re upset but that doesn’t give you the right to be a total ass to me and take out whatever you’re feeling on me. 

Dear best friend of mine,

you are not allowed to give up. You are such a strong, beautiful person. The fact is that the two of us are still so young and deciding to give up now is not worth it. Sometimes everything sucks, but then again what are friends for? You should know I will drop everything that I am doing to help you. Sometimes relationships don’t work out and yeah, it’s understandable to cry and to hate everything (or at least say you do) but you still have so much ahead of you. Life is full of hits and misses, gains and losses, and falling in and out of love. Don’t let those who hurt you define your next relationship. You deserve to be with someone who is proud to say that they are with you. You are so amazing and I hope that you realize that. I will always love you!

Rant

Really? WHAT THE FUCK? You are supposed to be my boyfriend not another controlling force in my life. I can do whatever the fuck I want. If I want to be in a Rocky Horror cast then I am going to do that. Get over it. It’s not the same as being a “dancer” or a hooker. Knock it off. You said you’re not controlling well then show me. I can’t even post a fucking video on my best friend’s wall without you freaking out! Get the fuck over it. I adore you I really do but it comes to the point where you are starting to piss me off and hurt me more than you make me happy. I can’t deal with it. If this shit doesn’t get better soon I don’t know what I am going to do. When you relax it makes things so much easier. I know things didn’t go well with my parents, but really? Is it necessary to take out your frustration on me? It’s really not my fault and this is not okay. I really hope things change soon.